same-sex marriage now legalized in illinois - i guess sometimes, midwest is best.

+ posted by M @ 6:41 AM

...	Thursday, February 15, 2007

can someone explain to me why cornell (in ITHACA) gives out holidays because of the snow, and we don't get any even though we're in FREAKING chicago and have been warned that buses might collapse because of the wind?

it's been a blizzard these few days.

oh, happy valentine's day, i guess.

+ posted by M @ 5:02 AM

...	Wednesday, February 07, 2007

so today, while reading through the posts on my university marketplace board (advertising apartments, looking for lost items etc), i came across this post:

A few years ago I found a ring on the sidewalk in the U of C campus vicinity. I was a worse person then, and I took the ring. Now I want to give it back. The ring is a plain, platinum band from Tiffany & co. It is almost surely a woman's size. If you can tell me what the inscription says, I will send it to you immediately

i wonder what made the person decide to suddenly return it and why she would have kept it without selling it for so many years, especially with an inscription it. it wasn't as though it was a decorative ring or anything - the beauty of the ring probably lies inside it rather than outside since it was just a plain band. was she wearing it, looking at it, what was this person doing with the ring?! why would she wear it? it's very much like wearing jewelry stolen from a corpse, i feel. maybe because i view all jewelry as sentimental and hardly like to buy it for myself. perhaps it is a man who took it and gave it to a girlfriend who has just broken up with him and so he finally wants to return it. but then i know it is a woman because her username is 'nycgirl'.

the reality of it is that this ring might not even matter anymore. i wonder if the original owner of the ring does want it back, or even remembers it. maybe that relationship is over and she no longer even remembers she used to have such a ring, much less the inscription.

i don't know why i've been feeling so morose. i suppose things are just so transient, though so beautiful when they start. it's alway beautiful to look back on the initial feelings that were behind such inscriptions on rings, or poetry written for lovers ... but many times after a while it is just put in a box and enjoyed time from time, no longer alive but instead like a preserved butterfly pierced through its body with a pin to hold it down. it just becomes something beautiful to look at, but really, all feeling has died.

if i lost my ring and magically saw a post like that many years later, i hope i'd still want it back and still remember the inscription on it and i hope i'd still be with the person who gave it to me.

i don't know why i'm thinking so much about it. it's so poetic in a sense but i seem so incapable of writing anything vaguely poetic these days. my words come out thick and clumsy and reeking of unnecessary sentimentality and angst.

+ posted by M @ 12:44 PM

...	Friday, February 02, 2007

as ed would say ...

sian ji pua!

+ posted by M @ 12:18 PM