am online at this weird hour to burn a CD for cel so i can pass it to her later. something in the past few days made it click - i can't just write off my old friends like that. sure we all don't understand each other all that well, but at least we've stuck together through thick and thin for four years. well, somewhat anyway. i know that deep down they care. or so i hope.

i burnt her a copy of my [very own] compiled worship cd and the good thing is that this made me listen to it again after days of evanescence in my stereo. yeah, kind of miss my worship songs. its a gift which she never expected. i realize none of us properly congratulated her on accepting Christ - probably because we were all apprehensive about BRMC. and hard as it is, i suppose we shouldn't just judge the church like that.

thinking about it clearly, cel has to be one of the strongest people i know. her father was taken away in a split second and came as a total shock to her family, and through it all, she has still done well in her prelims [at the wake she was doing her homework], become the ncc encik, remained relatively sane [instead of developing disorders under pressure], remained open and positive and just been brave all the way. She has accepted God's plan which is so hard to do given the circumstances - and i feel like people don't give her enough credit. they call her a bimbo and don't like her because they think she is superficial and only about socialising and shopping; but it's not true. there is depth to her and there is so much courage she possesses.

i'm learning something everyday - things i ought to have known but was too blind to see.

+ posted by M @ 11:54 AM