kahshin just called to ask if i'd like to go to her bartley CG party on sunday. 0_0

i get the sense that i'm now one of their projects, this extra person they want to bring to their church. i don't know if i should go because if i do and end up getting to know all of them better i will feel all the more obligated to stay on. especially since it's not all of the youth, its just her CG. why's she inviting me when i've only met them once -_- according to her its a get-to-know-you session. frankly i don't really think i'm up to it because i feel anti-social, and apparently there is a VC party that day but i don't know the details about that [and i don't even know if i'm actually involved considering i don't even know the person whose house it's being held at].

yilin asked charm and i to go with her to the china black party tonight but both of us are not free. charm wants to go cb sometime next week but i don't think i am into those things. things are getting complicated, people are changing.

anyway. ice skating on wednesday. i haven't gone for so long. i'm quite looking forward to it. for a brief hour or so i get to feel like i'm living in a wintry place - sort of. i watched love actually again today with kai. it still gives me the warm fuzzies though i can't help but think everything is so commercialized now. i can't wait for lotr on saturday. yeah, why the heck am i waiting so long ... it'll be nice to watch a movie/musical with the whole gang finally though. unless of course everyone cancels out and then we'll be back to square one.

nj hasn't called me yet. and they're probably calling me tomorrow, given the time it is now. i'd just like them to do it fast so i can have some sort of confirmation. i need to start psyching myself for whichever jc i'm headed.

i liked fr yim's homily yesterday, though i'll never look at him the same way - i begin to imagine him in shades, a long black leather coat and practically coated in bling bling. hong kong gangster fr yim who listens to sappy pop music like 'i hope you dance'. my brothers tend to think that msgr lau's only redeeming quality is that of his love for WWE.

i don't know what i'm saying, i'm beginning to ramble.

+ posted by M @ 6:55 PM