honestly i'm going insane. we had the first day of lessons today and i can't take it - and most of them were merely introductory lessons. i feel ashamed - i am the most slack person in class who hasn't done any econs or math homework. i also keep thinking about how i will manage to sleep during classes instead of actually paying attention.

it's hard to sleep here, as compared to sc. i must make sure i move to the back tomorrow.. oh wait, they're shifting the thing around to some u-shaped arrangement so there's no way i can sleep now. damn.

but i guess i still like lit lessons, though i really do miss ms ma, and the freedom to express any such opinions to the class though i barely did because i slept. i mean, sure i contributed quite a bit to lit class today because i said i would be enthusiastic when i appealed; but the comfort level isn't there because i wonder if all of them are actually interested in what i have to say.

anyhow. i went for the first debate training session today and i already want to leave. just two hours have made me realize debate is made up of arrogant smart alecks who enjoy letting people know about all their academic achievements - 'i topped history twice in two years..' according to the nygh girl. well i don't exactly go around announcing my lit grades. what can i join? i already attached myself to ELDDS. well let's see how wednesday goes though i don't think i'm going to make it to the team. hopefully i can join a tennis cca with wong ying, but i still need to join one of the ELDDS thingies or else i'm really really ultra screwed.

people keep telling me i should go to their jcs, and so far the only people who have managed to convince me their jc is the one for me are the ones from RJC. what is this. rjc and njc, the two jcs i never wanted to go to, and i ended up going to one and now the other is appealing to me. but i'm seriously considering it now, frankly. i met up with yilin and cha for dinner at holland v after debate training. it was really nice.

hopefully this saturday charm can meet up with us at embassy.

i apologize for the sketchiness and boring entries. i'm simply way too exhausted.

+ posted by M @ 10:38 PM