very frightening dream i had this morning.

i was talking to a woman executive of an american firm, and she told me she was going to publish many bibles and give them out for free - the kind of bible i have. and i asked her why she would do such a stupid thing because the bible i have is really expensive [$100+]. and then i woke up in my dream, realizing i had dreamt about the executive. and as i awoke in my dream, i realized that she would do such a thing to spread the word of God - which is priceless.

suddenly, i became blind. a voice said angrily, 'you have not done what i asked you to do.' i was blind, lying in bed, and again unable to move. i struggled and fell off the bed in hope that the shock would allow me to move again, but i could barely feel myself fall. and then i stood up and walked, blind and numb all the time, finding my younger brother and anxiously telling him to tell my mother i was blind. but he just stood there, indifferent and lazy to find my mother.

subconsciously, i was struggling to wake up and make this nightmare end - and finally i did. i woke up, from the dream. i was really awake now. i went downstairs and found my grandfather eating lunch and he started telling me a story about how he encountered many beggars during his church duty. and one day he was praying and he saw this man in tattered attire and assumed he was a beggar, but instead, the poor man simply wished him happy new year and went off. he told me how he had judged him too soon - and i realize that's what i had done in the dream, judged the female executive too soon by calling her stupid. coincidence?

so far i've told my grandparents about the two dreams, but not my own parents. today i just chose to keep quiet about this dream because it was just too frightening and confusing.

+ posted by M @ 4:29 PM