i'm quite upset with myself. i haven't been in the mood for anything at all. be it answering emails, blogging, reading - i've generally been more engaged in spacing out and trying to figure out a way to make things fit.

my brother has been leaving poetry around the house - war poetry since his school is covering it now. i'm finding it quite comforting to walk around and be able to pick up a piece of wilfred owen or graves. frankly i think i'm going through some personal conflict now, but i can't seem to be able to sit myself down and work through it. there are so many things i believe in, and then there are so many things i believe in which work against what i thought i believed in. does that make sense? i think things aren't going very well.

and then of course the lack of communication with whoever, whatever, whenever, wherever. yet when i actually get to see people, we talk about nothing but daily happenings which essentially fade away and are insignificantly amusing.

i need to get down to thinking. meanwhile, i may not be blogging so often; at least it feels that way for now. try not to forget me if you can.

+ posted by M @ 3:21 PM