people like daryl are so sweet [smiles to self]

anyway. i will talk about yesterday. and then i will talk about some other things. and then i will get off and go to school for math and history which starts at twelve. and then i will meet jenny at venezia and have a good long hearty chat with her. i love love love love love love jen. and then i will go home and hope that a certain friend of mine actually has time for me. if not, so be it [deep sigh]. i still have to decide whether i want to go for dinner with ex-njcians or go for festival of praise this friday [which is tomorrow]. how now?

it's amazing how one bland-looking, st nicks girl can change and shape your entire day and your whole self-esteem structure. frankly i think that she has more of an effect on beatrice than me - even though bea doesn't even find -ahem-ahem- attractive. so we are shopping at guess because the sign outside says 50% OFF SEASONAL CLEARANCE. and i happen to spot her because i can spot her from a mile away. my eyes are trained to do so because usually, spotting her equates spotting eyecandy boyfriend shortly after. she had her hair up like she does in school [high up with a pink band and those on-purpose 'feelers' in front] and she was wearing Levi's jeans [i swear she was wearing Levi's but bea thinks otherwise] and a white t-shirt. she was with a friend whom bea describes as the typical st nicks ah lian. she stared at me, surprised, and then went out of the shop.

and this was priceless, zx's first reaction was, 'why is she so damn ugly?' what made it even funnier was that it wasn't meant to be malicious - it was just an instinctive reaction.

seeing her just makes me feel bad. i know it isn't her fault, that she is a completely innocent party and we shouldn't be this critical - but it just makes us [bea even more so] feel bad. so i purchased a guess skirt that's cute and flouncy and black and white and if i just keep thinking about all the dunks and flats and heels i'll be getting from the US i'm sure i will be much happier. yes, i am the epitome of materialism - but like sherm says, 'yes, clothes are nice. but thats not exactly what you need now right.' sadly, he's just too right. [i need YOU sherm. haha. ok, you know what i really mean and really need.]

we had to bump into her twice. we saw her again at the wisma underpass and this time she and her friend turned around on purpose to look at us. to which bea offers this consoling reason, 'they're just jealous that they don't look half as good.' unfortunately, i don't have the self-confidence to believe that.

i am aware this entry sounds largely bimbotic but ARGH WHY DID I HAVE TO SEE HER.

anyway, after that we met mandy for dinner and then came to my house to watch Ms. Universe. Australia won. AUSTRALIA. why? well i shouldn't judge too much because i missed the last q and a because i was watching disney.

i don't like how my holidays are going.

+ posted by M @ 11:02 AM