currently, i feel like i'm loaded with more responsibilities than i can bear.

chinese rep, which obliges me to try my best to finish the impossible chinese homework, and ne rep which got me into a little hot soup situation with SP, and as of now Drama vice ... i feel like all this is tipping the scale.

there are so many times i feel like ponning school but can't because i've got to be in school for some important thing or another. and seeing as NDC is coming up things are getting really hectic. but heck i don't even know what's going on with the NE stuff... which is why i'm in a spot of trouble. and now that i've been made to take part in the inter-house skits on CONFLICT [such an NE thing] which i'm going to try and get out of, actually ... and nj drama is in a gigantic mess which will take almost forever to clear up. and it's not just the mess. i have some ambitions for it too, but .. i think they were right to choose an IP pres, there will be more continuity and more time.

and i so don't want to support track tomorrow. and i have a huge problem with nj. what is with the lack of air-con in lectures? as if it isn't enough to make us stay in stuffy classrooms in our sack cloth uniforms, you want to deprive us of air conditioning in the LTs too? STOP BEING SO STINGY. we slaved so hard over college day and all the money raised went to THE COLLEGE FUND. so what are you using it for? more mugger tools? in other colleges where they have college fairs [-ahem-ac-ahem-] all the money goes to college funds too ... but you know what, IT SHOWS.

and then SATs and Promos are in the same month and SAT 2s are in the consecutive month and i really have to buck up for promos because i want a fairly sound transcript when i send it to the universities. thinking of something like four Cs. yeah. the scholarship grades.

and also have recently been drafted into classroom style lecture for class because i'm under the 'hopeless case' category for math according to consistently poor math results. had first classroom style math lecture today and it was so terrible. during the whole expanse of an hour, the teacher covered a grand total of ... ONE PAGE. on vectors. stuff which we learnt last year and i could still remember. i mean, i know my mathematic skills are atrocious, but today's lesson was pure insult to my intelligence. he was basically talking and talking away in his eccentric manner and because of the lack of class involvement i fell asleep. and got woken up when henry ended up leaning on me because he fell asleep too. 

i was just very tired. last night i stayed up to do the drama fruit cut outs and i spent about an hour flipping through five martha stewart Living magazines for fruits - at the end of the ordeal i was very, very hungry. i wish i could have baked something. ended up opening the canned peaches. my mom is not going to be too happy about that. they were probably reserved for her tart. or cake. or whatever.

and i hate the way i'm blogging now but my brain can't seem to function in any other way. look's like tonight is going to be another late night.

 

+ posted by M @ 5:07 PM