it has occurred to me that over this year i have developed a major attitude problem. yes, i'm mel the mc queen. so what? pon school. so what? fail ct. so what?

haha. ok i'm just insane. of course i realize the severity of it. i will definitely improve my attendance in school this term. i will definitely improve my grades this term. i will definitely improve every aspect of my life this term.

i'm really being serious about that. it has really hit home that if i want to get out of the njc hellhole, i have to get my life on track so the university will take me and i can quit school in, like, december THIS YEAR.

yes. 1500 on the SATs. yes. determined. yes. will do it. yes yes yes.

but today, syf lasts till 8 under the sun from two onwards. no way man. esp not in my dastardly njc uniform made of grey cornstarch. i mean, if it were a whole level thing. i'd go. but it's just an unlucky-my-class-got-picked thing. so, let's try to get an mc. after all i have been feeling sick ever since math paper ended. and if no mc, no problem. just get scolded by whole of pe department who organizes these senseless things or discipline head or whatever. they're just people. we're all just human. no big deal. seriously, YOU CAN'T TOUCH ME. or hit me with a textbook or something. really is of no consequence to me, currently.

yes. i have an attitude problem which i am currently trying my best to rectify. bea and i have realized we've turned very cold towards things. very cold.

sigh. responsibility sure is something i have to learn.

this entry has been disjointed. just like my thoughts.

+ posted by M @ 1:19 PM