pw is madness.

went to town to get surveys filled out today. zx and ven helped me give them out cos i was just too shy and felt too bad about disrupting people's lives. anyway. intended to give out surveys at hmv cos our project was on music. but people seemed so happy browsing CDs that i just couldn't bear to disturb them. checked out CDs myself. something i haven't done in a long while. found out that Ash released a new album [orpheus] and bought the over-priced Ataris CD. their range of dashboard is pathetic. though i think there might be a better selection the next time round since dashboard is getting airplay on the perfect ten now. ended up resorting to the takashimaya library. got quite a few down. now to collate the stuff.. sigh.

i saw something that really made me smile today. adeline came down on her own, as usual, to the canteen and sat by herself on another table and shu en and shi lei [my other classmates] sitting at the table diagonally opposite called out, 'hey, sit here!' and adeline's face lit up with a bright happy smile and she quickly brought her bag to join them. there is hope in this world.

well. rest of the day wasn't all that good. due to some other incidents i don't wish to discuss here. sigh. my closer friends shall know the cause of it because it is just too.. painful. i'm such a failure. what am i doing. i know it's just paper. but it hurts.

The Hero Dies In This One - The Ataris

As I leave here today, apartment 108
I'll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
The leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons,
And the comfort of your smile.
Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.

As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can't let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can't let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

(The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who you are.)

Stay who you are.
You must go on.
Stay who you are.

so that was today.

 

+ posted by M @ 8:06 PM