sometime tonight, my mom told me that yesterday was the first she'd seen me so happy in a long time. according to her i came home with a smile on my face and actually made conversation and she guessed it was because i came back from my class reunion. and i started to cry because she hit a nerve, and because she was right - i haven't been happy in a long time.

i haven't been happy for so long. except for last night, when i came home with two balloons for my sister - the helium made them float. and i crept into her room and still she was not sleeping. her little hands grasped the twine we used to keep the balloons to ourselves and she giggled and giggled and found it so funny that balloons could fly and hit the ceiling. they remained there for a while, at the top of the room. she laughed and laughed at them until i pulled them down for her, to which she let them go again almost instantly. and then she talked to me in her small voice about balloonia - the place balloons go when they're all out of air. a sort of balloon heaven.

it must be wonderful.

+ posted by M @ 11:43 PM