'whatever la'.

that's my favourite phrase of the moment. honestly. today hasn't been that great a day. my throat is sore and my nose blocked. we got half day today, which was a nice thing. went out with bea. just the two of us again. i swear it's dangerous. we shouldn't be left alone. bea and i were both in bad moods. i managed to convince her to watch finding neverland which she happily agreed to after discovering johnny depp was acting in it. people have raved about that movie. and i'm worried - it didn't make me feel like i expected to. i hoped to feel all happy and better after watching but i wasn't very touched when people around me were all sniffling [including bea]. i've never been the sort to cry at movies, but i didn't even feel a tweak at the heartstrings. perhaps i have none. perhaps they've been replaced with the finer, less easily worn, strands of plastic.

there is something wrong with me. after the movie bea and i sat around at centre point marks and spencer Revive Cafe just feeding off each other and making the other more depressed. bea noted how there were many couples in town today as we walked about. i said she was being oversensitive. until i did realize there in fact were MANY couples milling about going on their own happy business. at first my argument was, let the couples be happy. but after a while i got annoyed. i was pmsey and i tell you bea's depression did not help either. it got to a point where as we walked past heeren some company had a roadshow and was announcing the valentines promotion and simultaneously we said, 'oh shut up lah'

i notice how many people like many people. with one glance, a person can decide they like that person and then spend many a night crying their eyes out over that one person. i have never mastered such flippant dedication, nor understood it. my classmate can decide to spend $50 on a girl he hardly knows just because 'i like her very much'. what is with this, 'like'? i'm sorry i cannot understand such things because i am unable to decide on heart's matters at the blink of an eye ... it's just me. i'm just weird, basically. weird AND spinsterish probably.

OH AND FACT: WE ARE CELEBRATING A MASSACRE PEOPLE. st valentines day massacre. does that make you feel good? i don't even feel like baking cookies now but we'll see. if a certain little miss annoys me enough i just may try to bake the most spectacular cookies ever.

yes, it bugs me, i'll admit it. and i'll continue laughing wryly and sadly to myself, thank you very much.

+ posted by M @ 10:48 PM