mmmm. a rare sight. drama teacher in charge actually helping out with props. HAHA AM PLEASED!

anyways. am rather annoyed because my oc 18 just WONT DOWNLOAD AFTER X DAYS IT'S ONLY 13% completed! aiyiyiyiyi. and apparently bittorrent doesn't work so well on me cos i've got firewall, but i don't! i checked it already. weird weird weird AHH DL NOWWWWWW. and my movie files are magically disappearing all the timeeeee im annoyed the minute i dl stuff now i'm gonna SHIFT IT OUT so they won't get lost. maybe people are hacking into my com or something.

don't sweat the small stuff don't sweat the small stuff ... AHH am going quite mad!

sigh. it's just a tv show mel. your life doesn't depend on it.

oh wells. today had a talk with yifang about marriage. she told me she'd give up her career, her dreams, and everything else just to get married [to the right man, of course] and said it was a lifelong goal of hers. i guess in a way we used to wonder how mrs quek [of sc history fame] could actually say she knew it was the only thing she wanted to do - but now i sort of understand. thinking it through while talking to yif today, i agreed that, yes, i probably would give up my career and whatnot just to get married. i know, shocking remark for me to make. feminists don't throw your balls of fire at me just yet. but i feel that really, marriage is a once in a lifetime experience and having children [if you do it right] is something that will make an impression on you forever, and teach you how to truly LOVE. because it is in creation and in loving a child despite all his/her flaws and faults, the ready forgiveness that comes with parenting that really helps us grow deeper in God's love and be a real complete human being [read: the prodigal son! i particularly love the painting, if one looks closely you will see one hand is a woman's and one hand is a man's]. and all that experience is worth far more than even a dream job - be it mediating world relations or even inventing a cure for a disease. because those things ARE great and glorious and beneficial, but learning how to love each other wholeheartedly IS the greatest thing we can ever do. anyway this is just my view, it may speak against feminist values but seriously i speak purely for LOVE.

also talked to yifang about the fears and insecurity that comes with marriage and how one pins everything down on that one marriage [i don't believe in divorce] and then what if it falls apart? what if it collapses? and in a tragically beautiful way, you die if that marriage dies. it's scary. human beings are scary things.

+ posted by M @ 6:28 PM