after all the post-dramafest giddiness has settled down, i've done some reflecting. after talking to some of the exco, after realizing the phrase dio gave us, i suppose we all feel a bit bitter about things. i think that briefing before dramafest started really didn't go down too well with us. we were all individually waiting for at least a small thank you and we didn't get it. and we only realized that all of us were affected by that when we discussed with each other. i know dio has this whole theory about self glorification and what not - but we weren't expecting some extravagant thank you with everyone clapping for us and whatever, in fact even a private acknowledgement from the teachers would have satisfied us. we just wanted to be recognised, because even though things may not have gone as smoothly and efficiently as dio would have liked - we really cared a lot about this production and for weeks it consumed us totally [the only thing on my mind the past week was DRAMAFEST. i went to class like a zombie. i don't even remember how tuesday, wednesday and thursday passed except that i knew at the end of the day there'd be rehearsals.]. i guess i didn't mind so much because the people that were really important to me showed so much support - my mom, my friends [esp my non nj friends who made extra effort to come down].

and all the sarcasm was really not appreciated. there's constructive criticism and there's times when it does get personal. i don't really know what he means by giving us the phrase 'find it', and maybe i'm being oversensitive by thinking it is just a sarcastic statement telling us we just haven't found it, haven't succeeded. but you know, whatever. i don't make it a point to dislike dio, and i don't dislike him, and i recognize that he's my gp AND lit teacher and i'll need to be working with him for the rest of the year. stuff like this happens in life and i just wish there was something i could do to alleviate the disappointment some of the exco are feeling. because it's not worth it. guys, we know we did our best, we know we cried and sweat over dramafest, and we've come out better for it - we made friends. and we know at the end of the day, ratty teachers or not, that it was really worth it. i hope you'll feel that way. despite all the frustrations and stress, it's been great to work with you guys. DRAMA EXCO 2005, we are a special bunch because we had to pick up where the last exco let off and we really improved njdrama so much more from the state it was left in last year.

FOUND IT.

+ posted by M @ 2:01 PM