it has been a trying day. i was happy enough when i thought we had done up the drama posters for good yesterday but showed them to DIO today and he wanted some changes done so they'd all be in line with each other.

then it was a mad rush for me to try and get them all together by 2pm when the printman came down or else 'we'll miss the boat'. adeline wasn't in school today so i had to grab someone, anyone from Art to help me. fortunately yuehan and i had coinciding free periods and he very nicely agreed to help even though he isn't even in drama. in frantic times, you really appreciate the little kindnesses shown your way. well as a result of trying to get them all in one running theme, i had to let go of two designs, one in particular which i liked very much [the smiley design. i liked that one muchly] so we were left with three. the teachers are weird. i don't think they understand how complex photoshop is when it comes to layering and layering these designs, and especially without adeline around [she's familiar with her own layers] changes cannot be made every few minutes. it is a rather painful process i can tell you that. and i was only watching and giving suggestions.

well we finally got all the stuff done when the printman came down except for one poster which is sort of hanging about because the teachers liked the BLUE TINGE WHICH WAS ACTUALLY A PRINTING DEFECT. i mean honestly. i had to explain that to them a few times and they didn't seem to get it they just kept on going on about how nice it was. DENSE-ITY! so i get the feeling we need to redo that one. my goodness. sheeshums.

and in dio's corner he picks up my file and looks at it and says something completely ineligible and after commenting on luhrmann whom i said i liked, he said, 'everyone needs something to believe in'. yeah, well. i wasn't in the mood for some chit-chat about my beliefs which he knows nothing about so seriously, JUST LAY OFF. i know i sound completely defensive but i don't really like people assuming things about me they don't know [even if you might think you're highly insightful]. don't come near me unless i let you in. maybe that sounds harsh to you but that's just how i work. there are always layers. the civil smiles and conversations, and then there is the small door to the heart.

ah well, it's no use getting annoyed with teachers. essentially it's my CCA and i'm going to get this DONE.

so there were two instances today. yuehan's help and my math teacher's understanding nature. math is my weakest subject in school as it is for most of us arts students and i guess he knows that. i'm usually fiddling with my phone during his class because it's one of the first periods and every morning there will always be drama stuff to settle. today after class he asked me if i was very busy and i told him dramafest was coming and well, i was glad he noticed that i was a little jittery when most teachers just don't give you any leeway at all. and then i didn't manage to go for his remedial because of the poster fiasco after school but i ran into him afterward and he was rather understanding about it.

am also happy because when i went to the library today and asked the usually grumpy librarian if i could renew my books, she said, 'yes of course!' in a very cheerful tone. and that made me happy.

seems like nothing, but it's something.

just yesterday i heard about the softballer's demise. i can't imagine the extremity and intensity of feelings they are experiencing - the idea that all their efforts have been excruciatingly futile - but i do understand that it's frustrating because, well, 'it's life'. a simple rusty expression people use in a lame attempt to justify the irrational events around them. just when you think it's in the bag, it jumps out and sinks into the ground. because when i read their blogs and see the swift change in tone and emotion in their entries [from the glowing glee of victory to the black despair] i can really feel for this big plunge their hearts have taken. oh, how quickly things go, how transient things are.

so today we were told be the principal [with regards to academia], YOUR LIVES ARE AT STAKE HERE! I AM THINKING OF YOUR HAPPINESS!

yes, well. i'll be the better judge of that, thank you very much.

+ posted by M @ 9:21 PM