today is corpus christi sunday and now i'm sitting in front of the computer waiting for my grandparents to be back with some dinner.

family is away in china for a week except for me and my brother and my brother has gone to stay at his friend's place so i'm home alone. am glad though, that my maternal grandparents have been coming to stay the night - they'll be doing so till my parents get back. grandparents are really the most doting people in the world. it's always 'what do you want to eat?' and i never get woken up and 'where do you want to be sent?'. i wonder how a pair of persons could ever take delight in loving and spoiling me so much. and not just that, i really enjoy talking to my grandpa about life and stuff. he always has something interesting to say, all his philosophies, all his theories, so full of wisdom and experience.

anyhow. so today in church during corpus christi mass it just really OCCURRED to me. the story of Christ is sometimes so surreal. he sounds like those legendary heroes of the past - so much so that sometimes people think its myth. before i knew anything about the christian faith i used to think it was just a nice make believe story people liked to tell [this was when i was a child] - i never actually grasped the reality of the Greatest Story Ever Told. but today it just all. sprung up on me at once. that THIS IS REAL. Christ's blood was shed for us. He REALLY died, He REALLY rose from the dead, He REALLY loves us that much. and a lot of the time i don't think people really understand how REAL this is [myself included]. because if everyone really knew and understood how real Christ's death on the cross was - how could anyone still deny him and refuse to believe? there is just SO much that speaks to us to BELIEVE in Him. bea used to say this to me, 'mel i don't understand how people can still deny Christ after all these things have happened' and i used to say i could understand how people could refuse God because i didn't really truly understand what she meant. but today, this epiphany makes me realize, that she's right. HOW can people not believe even after The Passion of Our Christ?! HOW? now i don't understand the other perspective so much anymore. funny how humans can just make the switch so abruptly.

because yes, you can say that you don't have faith in God, you believe there is no God and so on. but you CANNOT deny the fact that there was a man called Jesus who died a brutal death on the cross and told us that HE DIED FOR US, and then He ROSE again. so maybe you use scientific evidence and what not to back your claim [big bang theory etcetc] - but just think about it, even logically [this in itself is paradoxical because logic and emotion are so different], why would anyone die for us unless He loved us so much? the death and resurrection of Christ has had a profound impact on the world - christians and non-christians - and there is definitely a reason for that. i think it would be so interesting to know what the non-emotional and non-theological view on Christ as a historical figure is. because i don't think i've ever really understood that viewpoint of Him as a mere man.

anyway, anyone who's ever interested in knowing more about the faith, i will be more than glad to bring you to church with me.

+ posted by M @ 7:34 PM