why'd you have to be so cute
it's impossible to ignore you
must you make me laugh so much
it's bad enough we get along so well

goodnight and go - imogen heap

am feeling very full. and restless. and now a little tired.

the more i study international history, the more sickened i get with the world. i think arts subjects tend to do that to you sometimes. i mean the US should just mind their own business. they find fault with a nationalist government they see as communist because they are just TOO STUPID TO DIFFERENTIATE and then they try to assassinate/overthrow the guy and place a right-wing dictator in his place. SO MANY TIMES. like wth. stop it already, learn your lesson and stop bullying people. and you know what, even if the people do elect a communist president - IT ISN'T ANY OF YOUR BUSINESS. so suck it up and leave them alone.

and yesterday when i asked my parents if they were going to visit tiananmen square on their trip to china in june and i told them that was where many people were killed, they said, 'not that many people. not thousands.' and i was quite horrified, 'isn't killing one person bad enough?!' i think all this war/MASS MURDER just desensitizes us so much nowadays - people are just seen as statistics and we don't empathize enough for each individual life that is lost.

anyway i have discovered that our j1 arts guys are very different from their j2 counterparts. and in a good way. they seem to be more intellectual, they enjoy literature and drama. i find them a lot easier to relate to than my guy classmates i find. i mean, i get the feeling that one can really hold conversations with them about books and art and life instead of the trivial gossips i trade with people on a daily basis. one of them caught me off guard by asking me, 'are you a writer?' i didn't really know what to say - because i don't know if i can call myself a writer anymore. i haven't written anything decent in more than a year. so i just turned it around and asked what he meant, and he said, 'well, like, you write stuff, right?' and i still didn't really answer that, so he just told me i had a 'literary aura'. haven't really been sized up so much by a person for a while. and i haven't gotten that kind of comment and insight from someone in a long time. i like these people, because i think they're truly interested in the world of beauty and art around them and they really have a passion for it [one of them told me he likes shakespeare]. and it's refreshing to be around people like them because i guess you just feed off the positive energy.

today was quite a nice day. it was nice to have fun with the drama people during their rehearsals and make all sorts of witty jokes. and at times, talk about interesting things.

+ posted by M @ 9:00 PM