life is still hum drum.

ah well. about a week to the commons part 2, i guess this is how i'll be living out my day to day existence. study study study. till 3 am last night. and then i just couldn't sleep till 5 am because.. after staying up so late you just.. can't sleep. i don't know. and sheesh, i know there are people working much harder than me but i just can't take it. i spend three hours doing notes on chapter 1 of silas marner and there's STILL MORE TO WRITE. when it comes to lit i really don't know how to control myself. there's just so much in words. so many things of paramount importance. and somehow i feel like all this effort is futile anyway. i feel like i'm still going to fail my math. still going to scrape passes for lit and history even though I AM TRYING.

it shouldn't be this hard. it shouldn't. God help me.

signed upwith the church to sell flags for the yellow ribbon project tomorrow. this means that my whole day is practically gone. i quite regret signing up without thinking properly of the date but, well, i must not lose sense of life just because of exams and remember why i signed up in the first place [BECAUSE IT IS IMPORTANT]. as a result, cannot do many things i wanted to. cannot watch baz luhrmann's retrospective [the pain of it is killing me i tell you], especially when there is a 3 for 2 special NEXT SATURDAY!! sigh.

mandy where are you. i need to study at your place. i can't study at home. but i am going to try now. yes, i'm going to try.

happy holidays, everyone, or whatever is left of it.

+ posted by M @ 1:02 PM