WARNING: IF SELF INDULGENT PEOPLE ANNOY YOU, READ NO FURTHER.

life has been rather droll the past few days. weeks. years.

hmm.

anyway. i've not been in a good mood for quite some time and i'm sorry if i've been acting weird. today i went to watch the nj dance people at 'passion in d'StreetZ [or sth like that, sheesh what a retarded name but whatever]' and it's really ... interesting. i mean. i don't know. i'm all for supporting the local arts scene and whatnot but i really can't appreciate this whole hip-hop culture thing. rapping about sexy women and wanting to get it on and blah blah blah - please, enough already. it's not very.. i don't know. do these people really feel what they are saying? i can't see the conviction. and the rock bands? [or at least the one i caught, which apparently is very popular] not very impressive either. i'm not meaning to be a critical snooty audience because i understand the performer's dilemma ... but really. sigh. this totally reminds me of the time some youth drama group did romeo and juliet singaporean style and massacred the play. ah well, it was good to see sam and nina and bron perform. i understand how that feels.

okay. all my gripes. gripes. gripes. as you can tell i just don't like all that rap stuff so i'm just biased. i mean i like wyclef and tupac alright .. but the stuff people come up with today. UGH. i turn on the radio briefly sometimes and the amount of bad unauthentic music on the air is just nauseating.

whine whine whine. math is evil. math is evil. math is evil. math is evil.

on the other hand. rewatched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind last week when it showed on HBO, and i just have to say it was even more wonderful the second time watching it! so many new things to discover. and i am currently downloading it because i want the uncut version [i hate how people censor films - the producer obviously put something in because it was of relevance] and then i shall watch it again. this movie really blows me away. i know i say that about so many films, but there is just SO MUCH BEAUTY around us, and we only realize at certain moments when we watch these things and then that realization disappears. i found the third draft of the script online and, reading it, i just felt so.. jealous and awed at the same time. sometimes i feel so envious of others' brilliance [kaufman, luhrmann, gondry] and i wish i could create something half as beautiful as that, nay, less than half! and i just kept thinking how wonderful it would be to stage a performance of ESOTSM and yet at the same time wishing i could write an original script good enough to be staged.

i think theatre and film is just really really something i want to pursue even further. yes, i really would like that.

+ posted by M @ 11:23 PM