am feeling rather ... annoyed and frustrated.

i thought i found the perfect college. Barnard College. liberal arts. not as frighteningly selective as the Ivys. in New York, New York! but i missed out on one MAJOR MINOR detail.

womens' college.

honestly. wellesley and barnard seem like such nice choices. wonderful locations, good affiliations [in particular, Barnard is affiliated to Julliard], all liberal artsy and stuff. BUT THEY'RE WOMENS' COLLEGES. maybe it's a personal bias i have to overcome but i just don't want to go to an all-girls college. don't get me wrong, the years i spent in SCGS were the best of my life - but an all girls COLLEGE? when i'm like, 19?! the thing i just don't like is how they say it's a good environment for the girls and stuff. but in the real world, men exist. we just have to deal with it, come out of our comfort zones and 'compete' with them [which seems to be the main issue] whether we like it or not. there will always be chauvistic morons around. no point planting yourself in a safe haven for four years only to have all your illusions shattered.

and besides, it's nice to get a male opinion [if it's a thoughtful one]. diversity is always good.

argh. my college counselor seems bent on sending me off to Wellesley [perhaps because he thinks the lack of male applicants, and thus less applicants on the whole, will also give me a higher chance of getting in]. i don't know what i should do. for a while i felt so sure of where i wanted to go [Barnard, before i realized it was womens']. and now, i'm back where i started.

i'm just really frustrated. help me. maybe i'm meant to go to an all-womens' college and die from extreme feminist sentiments [i am pro-feminist, but not a feminist, understand the difference?]. i feel all these extreme feminists [Adrienne Rich and a variety of WOMEN WOMEN WOMEN poets] are rather contrived at some point of time.

we'll just see how it goes.

+ posted by M @ 8:29 PM