today i was greeted with a flash of memory from happier times that we sometimes often forget existed. and i remembered walking backwards from the canteen to our 4PR classroom, yes, i suddenly felt like walking backwards and i'd do so with the green tiles beneath my feet and jasmine and ying ying laughing at my spontaneously mad antics and making sure i didn't knock into the pillars, jenny just giggling in amusement and yilin staring in amazement at my silliness. after a few trips they got used to me walking backwards and we actually had actual conversations that way. i liked it because i could see their faces when we talked. we were all just so happy.

and then i remember in sec2, burying the dead bird we found with tools from the science garden, with jacyn and deborah and sticking a makeshift cross on the grave. the sec1 classes around that area suddenly started discovering a lot of dead birds and burying them too. they were just so tickled by our efforts i think that they got enthusiastic about it. and even though we didn't know each other we started talking to each other about bird-burying efforts. we all started plucking little flowers for the graves. there were like, three!

i think now i've sort of deadened and stopped doing weird things like that. has that part of me died? it's sad to think so.

God, i really miss them. and i really miss SCGS. i need to go back soon or i'll die, i've been missing every single event this year - national day, anyone?

+ posted by M @ 11:34 AM