edit: a small epiphany

i've just finished watching Magnolia, which i kept from yuehan for a month. it's pretty heavy stuff and hard to get through. something like Requiem For A Dream [which is the most depressing movie i have ever watched in my life] but more complicated and draggy and not so much about drugs and sex. i watched half of it last night and the last half today because i really needed to return it to him and i don't like not watching things i've kept for so long and not knowing what to say when he asks what i thought of it. maybe it came at a right time. the whole movie is pretty screwed up - a whole display of peoples' screwed up lives but the ending is worth the wait. i guess that's how life is, it may be all messy and grimy and disgusting but that final moment where a glimmer of light reaches you is worth all the gunk. and it's never too late to turn your life around. so that's what i got from finishing that movie, and i'm glad. i'm going to try to be strong. i'm going to try to stay positive. i'm going to get through this. and i really hope there's light at the end of the tunnel.

+ posted by M @ 5:09 PM