how things can change so drastically in the span of a day.

i was feeling kind of gloomy this morning because my trifle [which cost a lot to make and was time consuming] was hardly touched due to the enormous excess of food at the picnic. and then it rained and the rainwater got into it so i basically had to throw the whole thing away.

then tonight, i half dragged myself to dinner at straits kitchen to find, basically, everyone there. got the surprise of my life, first time i've had a surprise party thrown for me. though more than a week early, it was a great 18th birthday celebration. i was just really happy to see everyone, and it felt so surreal. and i'm just so touched that dear bea helped plan the whole thing with mandy. bea, you don't read this, but thank you. and thank you mandy, if you are reading this.

[terry if you happen to read this, i'm sorry the guys weren't invited. i think there were some complications with the planning. poor bea was really very stressed and she did her best to plan things. i'm sorry, wasn't on purpose, if any of you took offense. thank you so much for the lamp that you all shared. we'll have another party with everyone after the prelims/As!]

well, up to date, i've received many many books and CDs which is just the way i like it. oscar wilde's best, wb yeats collection, frank bidart's Desire, roger mcgough's Everyday Eclipses, a book on shakespeare the man, an andy warhol notebook (!), thomas more's Utopia, anthony bourdain's Kitchen Confidential, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind dvd, adaptation vcd ...

God i'm in heaven! [yeah, i'm such a nerd.]

well, really pretty happy. i won't forget this night for a long time to come. and also, catching Eric Khoo's Be With Me with jen next week! excited.

but, i must remember to study. i made a very academic related birthday wish this year, and i hope it materializes.

+ posted by M @ 12:22 AM