shopping yesterday was not all that exciting. i only bought one thing. i'm quite into black right now. there were other things that caught my eye but Zara collection was quite ick.

and what i really want to do is look around at heeren and far east for offbeat stuff. and beads. BEADS. SHINY STUFF!

anyhow. the other thing i really want to do is watch tons and tons of movies. and go to a cinema. i'm not that starved for the cinema because i had my Be With Me date a few weeks back, but i quite want to see The Brothers Grimm. what else is there to watch? not that much, at present. had a 3 movie marathon with bea on thursday. it really felt good, i still wanted more after that. i can just sit there and watch straight on. and read. i need to read. and i need to do my college applications.

it was quite strange because yesterday after i had left the girls and was walking towards wheelock i was approached by some lady to do a savings survey thing. obviously because she thought i was working/university student. after having told her i was still in jc, she asked if i could leave me contacts because i might need to services next time. i did so just to help her out. she probably had to hit a certain quota. anyway while i was filling it out, we made small chat and amongst other things such as telling me upon first glance i looked like i was out of town, she asked what i planned to study and suggested, 'medicine?' and i quite looked at her in shock, as if not really believing my ears. 'medicine?!' how how HOW ironic. told her i was an arts student. do i look science-y? i know i'm all biased but i don't want to resemble a science student! we arts students take some pride in being in the arts - all our grumbling about how we're neglected by the school is part of that pride.

i have no qualms admitting that at times i can be very pretentious.

and the whole out of town thing. i get that a lot. possibly because when i walk by myself i look rather out of place and detached. when i'm alone i like to detach myself and just be. there are plenty of people who are so plugged in that they feel weird alone in town, but i love it. i love to wander around by myself, people watch and think. or maybe it's because i hardly feel like i'm part of this country, failing to sing the national anthem and say the pledge for about a year now. don't ask me why - i just decided to stop. i have multiple hangups, and this is one of them.

i'm a very queer person and hard to live with, having so many hangups. but most people don't really really know me, because, who really really knows anyone? and sometimes i like it that way, but most times it gets dreadfully lonely.

+ posted by M @ 10:59 AM