um, it's the prelims tomorrow. and i'm pretty unprepared.

that's an understatement. sigh. i wish i had been more productive this week, but that's what happens when you don't draw up a study plan for the holiday and just study whatever you feel like. i did Heart of Darkness quite a while ago and i actually like the book and think about it often but i haven't revised it. and pinter is just hanging by a thread. and huxley? other than the gruelling imagery assignment i did a week ago, i haven't touched it [and the assignment doesn't even help much because it's more of a context thing and we're encouraged to do essay]. Huxley is my big fear right now because it doesn't even feel like we've finished the book though we have. i didn't plan my time well for lit, stupidly starting on M4M and Herbert when that's the very last paper - oh well, what's done is done. at least it's an afternoon paper tomorrow.

math? haha. i'm working my way through NJC past papers and from time to time realize i can't remember old formulae. especially trigo and whatnot. and the NJC papers? are ridiculously .. ridiculous. i pray i get a D for math. seriously, a D and i'm satisfied. but seeing as i haven't passed math at A-Level in my whole JC career, that's asking a bit much.

history? where do i start. i have barely touched SEA [i'm serious]. for IH, mark lo's remedial has made sure i write an essay a week - [i've written maybe 8 essays or more because of him] so it helps, but i haven't revised much for sino-soviet split, crisis and NAR which i hate. and UN, GOD! SEA is a big chunk and i've only touched Economy. so you get the drift of how dead i am, seriously.

what have i been doing all week? all year? i don't know, man. obviously not studying seriously enough : / time to pray, really, really, hard. i made my bed, now i have to lie in it. let this be a lesson to myself -_-

okay so ranting is going to help any, but whatever. i needed to vent.

+ posted by M @ 11:46 AM