can i get a huge collective sigh of relief?

SEA HISTORY IS OVER, DEAD, GONE. so it WAS kind of screwed up, but my attitude towards it is quite 'whatever' right now. i think i'm just numb, i don't really care right now since it's over. i don't understand how anyone can study SEA history without going completely out of their mind insane. it is not only boring (the westies colonised burma, malaya and 23987345987 other generic sea countries WHO CARES. the thing about race was quite interesting though, but ultimately useless information in exams, sadly!), it requires copious amounts of memory power which I DO NOT HAVE. clearly - i am not someone memorizes things. i read, and read, and hope it will stick. a lot of the times if i'm not interested it doesn't. to get me to start memorizing things consciously at this point in my life will prove quite difficult and painful. and even just reading sea history is enough to drive one mad when i have the attention span of a housefly and will leave things that do not captivate me (yes even math captivates in a twisted way because you're sort of locked in once you start a paper).

anyway, only one paper left and it's lit 3! i've never been very confident for this paper because time and time again it has come to bite me in the back and i think i want to try essays for the first time at the As but i am still happy because lit 3 texts (oh what am i saying, almost all texts interest me!) interest me and studying for it .. isn't really studying. so yes, am really quite relaxed. i want this to go out with a big bang, i WILL OWN LIT3. I WILL OWN IT! no matter what crap lit3 questions you throw at me SEAB, i am determined to OWN YOU. I WILL OWN YOU, YOU WAIT AND SEE. anyway, i have tons and tons of extra readings for heart of darkness and brave new world (which i went to zap from libraries so that i can OWN THIS PAPER!!!!!) so if any j1 should want for next year, i am willing to give them away. provided you dont mind my mad highlighting. i also have some notes on metaphysical poetry. i enjoy zapping tons of extra readings from the library because it really is enriching and interesting to hear so many takes on one text! SO YES!!!! i must do justice to Pinter and Huxley and Conrad. you guys are my motivation, i cannot allow myself to write lacklustre essays about your works, obviously! i cannot! it would be embarrassing and blasphemous and sad!

okay i've really gone quite mad! well the oc is very funny right now and i actually like taylor townsend and i think she and seth are very funny and i quite like that plot even though people will think i'm mad and i like julie very muchhhh and johnny is getting to be rather annoying and oliver-y. i realize he looks like mulroney dermot (or whatever weird name that uncharismatic actor has) which is not a good thing so i don't really like him anymore. also i liked the band subway(?) featured on that episode so i shall go find out more about them.

hmmmmm. i am still subconsciously anxious about results of course, but really, there's no point worrying and feeling remorseful and what not because it's over. so right now i don't feel particularly remorseful for sleeping last night even when i hadn't finished studying seahistory. (maybe i'll live to regret it one day, but for now i'm so starved-for-sleep delirious i couldn't possibly give a damn about not caring more about the thakins and their footwear)

+ posted by M @ 11:45 AM