inconsequential post

so i finished up the manutd-chelsea match. very disappointing. both teams underperformed (chelsea majorly), man utd was lucky, in my opinion. i lost 50 dollars to my nine year old brother. jose mourinho is hot when he broods (is it so wrong for me to think so? am i the only one that thinks he's better looking than any of the players on the field? he also wears very nice coats and trenches. maybe Roman is funding his closet).

it's math paper 1 tomorrow and i feel strangely calm. calm enough to do barely anything today and be here typing rubbish. it's not that i'm a math genius or extremely well-prepared ... i just feel ... calm. the panic usually hits a few moments before. i hope i can get a good sleep tonight. i'm more panicked for lit history and gp, frankly, because i still have many notes left to digest and once the exams start tomorrow it somehow feels like i shouldn't still be studying them but revising them. which i cannot do until i have studied them, which i haven't finished doing. you get the drift. note: i have done ZILCH for gp. zilch. am somehow hoping an A will fall from the sky.

also, my computer is staging a revolt against me. it keeps flashing this pop-up 'replace wireless keyboard battery'. i refuse to replace the battery until the keyboard dies and i think it sensed this attitude. it got more adamant in its requests - the pop up became huge, and filled the WHOLE monitor. and it just kept blinking rapidly, so much so that i couldn't read what i was reading. eventually it stopped. but yes, computers - they're alive!

if things work out, i could be landing a job working for someone in the local film industry. apparently he's working on something new right now. i'll probably be given rubbish work and be treated really catty by the crew/cast and receive peanuts (or nonexistent) pay, but i think it will be a great opportunity and give me some eye-opening experience. maybe help me decide if that's really what i want to pursue or if i'd rather do theatre. so after this stint with the film people i'll probably look for some payless work at SRT and compare the two experiences. i don't know. i still want to do ice cream, though. but i've got a whole 9 months to fill with various jobs so it's okay.

and i didn't want to get carried away about 'prom'. but i'm starting to get a little bit excited. i think the arts girls are rubbing off on me. though i still refuse to do my hair and wear makeup. when the exams are here, anything and everything else just seems so much more appealing - even 'prom' which will be held at the swissotel and which i think will be quite pathetic - but! it's all angela's fault, really. she introduced me to the wonders of online shopping. i have been looking at things online non-stop and i bought a vintage dress (which was NOT cheap). have also seen many huge bling vintage earrings going for cheap. and lots of nice jewellery (i have a weakness for this), which i don't need for prom but which i want anyway. oh, i watched Eternal Sunshine (AGAIN) the other night, and apart from loving it very much (again), i couldn't help but be shallow and notice this - i absolutely adore the piece of jewellery joel bought clementine for valentines day. it's really the type of thing i like. if anyone has any idea how i can find out where i can get something like it from (or better yet, wants to buy it for me because i am so loved and adored) ...

but i realize i'm just about the only daft person who goes off noticing these things in films. and i maintain that the bookstore scene is my favourite scene, because, love among books? is wonderful.

the scary thing is, do you think Lacuna Inc will one day become real? i think there is plenty of demand for it. the memory is a precious and sometimes dangerous thing and i can see how everyone would want in on this technology. the government and so on. or maybe i'm just being paranoid, but i can really see it happening.

i wish i had more intelligent and profound things to say but my brain just doesn't want to respond and it's too much of an effort to revive it, so i'm going to have to end here.

+ posted by M @ 7:18 PM