i have suddenly become obsessed with making a chocolate croissant, or any type of croissant, but most importantly a chocolate croissant. it is now my life goal (sort of).

as i have not found any reliable chocolate croissant recipe, i must satisfy myself with making nigella's almond danish pastries for van's birthday celebration tomorrow. the pastry dough is currently chilling in the fridge and i'll only be able to work on it tomorrow morning. hmm. i also need a new camera before i leave for Australia because if we do go whale watching, i'd like to take nicer pictures than i usually can with my current crummy 2.0 meg camera.

how easily i get distracted and switch 'lifegoals' all the time. it can be a problem. gayle once said i had so many options - writing, food, art, film. thing is, i appreciate these things more than create them. i do dabble in creating them but not as often, and i've never tried out film. i think i need something that can keep me interested continuously as i have a very very short attention span. i forget things very easily and move on very quickly (e.g i abandoned all plans of decorating my room simply to just watch films all day). i can give up everything for sleep. how ironic, since that is a state in which one does absolutely nothing but dream ... but maybe that's why i enjoy it so much.

i watched Zhang Yi Mou's Hero this afternoon. it is so incredibly beautifully shot, really a visually arresting experience. also watched 12 Storeys the other day. hmm. i don't know, i still prefer Be With Me. 12 Storeys has a fairly amateurish feel about it, though at times it really was particularly resonating. 'so truthful it hurts', definitely worth a watch. anyway i have Mee Pok Man to be watched and a couple other Wong Kar Wai movies i recently rented.

i can't form proper sentences anymore.

i don't really know why i'm watching all this stuff. in a way i'm using it as an excuse to get inspired for my college essay questions and break up my writer's block (hoping something will just CLICK and i'll be able to whip up a few essays), but on the other hand i've just been absorbing and absorbing because otherwise i'd be wasting my time. baggage, whitby used to say. i think the more stuff one reads and watches the more enriched a person gets ... it all leads to better writing the next time, better appreciation of the things to come. i wrote something last week, but i haven't posted it here because after the feelings i felt while writing it faded, i didn't really feel like posting it. oh, i am so mercurial that even my writing has become so inconstant and subject to my moodswings. art should be timeless, but mine isn't.

so what will i do?

+ posted by M @ 5:07 PM