Open iTunes/iPod, Windows Media Player, or WinAmp to answer the following. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrasing it is.

How many songs: 1783

Sort by song title
First Song: #1 Crush - Garbage
Last Song: long juan (quan?) feng - Jay Chou

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: Queen Mab Interlude - Nellee Hooper (Romeo+Juliet OST)
Longest Song: Slow Movement - Nellee Hooper (Romeo+Juliet OST)

Sort by album:
First Album: 100 Years - Five For Fighting
Last Album: Ye Hui Mei - Jay Chou

Top Five Most Played Songs:
because i fall asleep to these every night
1) Still - Hillsong
2) Now That You're Near - Hillsong
3) Rain Down - Planet Shakers
4) Blessed - Hillsong
5) Awesome God - Hillsong

First song that comes up on Shuffle: No Such Thing - John Mayer

Search ....
"sex", how many songs come up? 9. all from The Sex Pistols.
"death", 117. mainly Death Cab For Cutie.
"love", 110 :)
"you", 307

took a trip to town on my own today for a bit. got some DVDs from Kinokuniya with my brother's vouchers, that felt good. i really like going to bookstores and people watching. it's nice to see that some people like poetry (though that section is normally painfully empty) and that some people are just having a good time walking around the store. it's also nice to go to CD shops. i went to HMV to browse after that, and was really appalled by the prices they slap on the EPs. 48 for the Stars albums?! 37 for The Ataris albums? i really wanted End Is Forever and a whole lot of other CDs (STARS STARS STARS) but i was really not willing to spend so unneccessarily. the fact that Kylie Minogue was playing the whole time through made my experience an even more unpleasant one. i was quite impressed that they brought in Mew and it was only 19.90, though - possibly because no one was buying it. was rather tempted to get their Frengers album but ended up getting Gang of Four's A Brief History of The Twentieth Century instead. anyway, they didn't seem to have Low Millions.

and i seem to have gotten over my Low Millions phase. what do i listen to nowadays? Death Cab, Death Cab and more Death Cab. plus Stars.

watched Rent with aa today. the broadway cast were really good, especially the guy who played roger. he had the total rock star voice i really love (think Scott Stapp, Pearl Jam). in a way, i liked it because it dealt with stuff like creation - roger talking about writing one song before he died from aids. i could kind of relate to that. just that one song, that one poem, that one art piece that matters and means something is what all artists live and die for. and ultimately, LOVE.

anyway i'm beginning to feel very jumpy. i feel REALLY STUPID for calling junxu PSYCHOTIC when he started work on his college apps last week (his 4 schools compared to my 7) because OMG i need to start work NOW i realize. and i SHOULD have started last week too. why, mel, are you always taking things so easy? i think i need someone to continually wake me up and remind me about these things. i really live in some sort of weird mel dream world. even dav started and she only has ONE RD. AHHHHH. i have 7 schools to be done in 2 weeks because i'm going away. i can forget about looking for a job or whatever else. i need to get those done. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. freakkkkking OUT.

quite a few people have told me that my idealism and dreaming is what makes me, ME. i guess that's true. but sometimes i really wish that i could be a little more plugged in because i think most of the time i am just TOO ... illogical and in the clouds, or something (i.e, calling people psychotic for starting on their apps when it's actually the logical thing to do). yeah, dars is right, i need someone who can ground me rather than flamboyant bohemian types. wouldn't that be boring though? but the world is made of DIFFERENT DIFFERENT PEOPLE and so we can ALL LEARN from EACH OTHER. i suppose it wouldn't be fun to only hang around with people you thought were your type (though i haven't really found many that are). SCIENCEY PEOPLE - COME FILL MY HEART WITH LOGIC! I THINK I NEED SOME! (YOU DON'T HEAR ME SAY THIS EVERYDAY)

okay, going to end here because i sound really loopy.

+ posted by M @ 1:25 AM