carol blogs:

These days have been rather upsetting. It feels like my friend Michelle and I are alone on an island surrounded by oceans of men who are beautiful, charming and talented but untouchable, unavailable and undeniably gay. One day, every time I saw a beautiful male I could cry.

too true. i find that two of the men i have been attracted to/found extremely fascinating and talented and wonderful this year turned out to be, well, GAY. am i destined to continuously find the men that i find attractive are, in fact, gay? only crushes and silly infatuations, but nonetheless infuriating at some point. why, what did we do (or not do)?! irrational thought on the behalf of womenkind, but really, 'tis sad.

on a less frivolous note, i really am so tired. so tired. so tired. feel like quitting everything and sleeping straight through the month. i really desperately need a holiday but with who and to where?

i need to learn how to take a break and stop working all the time and cluttering my schedule so (un?)necessarily. back to waitressing tomorrow. queen ping has been bizarre, interesting at times but very, very tiring and a little scary.

+ posted by M @ 1:34 AM