i really miss my friends back home. bea called last night and it felt so great to talk to her. i felt loved. deep deep love. i miss it, a lot. i guess we were all very loving towards each other, always comforting each other and telling each other they were special. i've become so used to that environment ... with bea, gayle, mandy, chalene, carol, celene, dawn, angie, charm ... everyone. you just feel like you're invincible and anything is possible. like for example carol will just say, 'mel, let's make a film!'

no one here has said that to me so far.

like WE ARE YOUNG, shoulder to shoulder we stand, no promises no demands, love is a battlefield!

it's not like i don't hang out with anyone here - but there just isn't that same support system. i hope i can find one here eventually. it's one thing to cry to aly about it over the phone, it would be a completely different thing if i had someone here to hug me and hold my hand. i need a group of girlfriends. because girlfriends are the most special-est friends you will ever have. SIGH. wish you all were here. we would have so much fun shopping in the city. mandy you must get your 4.0 GPA and come here on business exchange.

+ posted by M @ 3:06 PM