truth.

i used to think you could just feel it in your bones. that you would know immediately what to do, where to go, who to be because it was true and it was the only way. these past months i've found that everything i thought was true has been torn apart. and the one thing that i held close throughout that time was dismantled and picked at right in front of my eyes earlier today.

in the world today, nothing is really what it seems. beauty could very well be plastic, lies and deception are everywhere. everyone knows this. films, plays, art that i turn to for solace at times - even those are sometimes contrived. and of course, technically, untrue. the only thing that remains is love. and even the name of love has been slandered - the cheap commercialized romantic comedies, empty pop songs, people take love so lightly these days.

i felt like our love was real. i know it is real. but to have it torn down before me, told over and over again that it was merely a diabolic deception has really hit me hard. and i don't really know what to think any more, about so many things. but despite all the dirt thrown on us in an attempt to disqualify us and dehumanize this, i am sure that i love. and that i am loved. i just don't really know where to go from here. i never thought i'd actually say this, but perhaps sometimes love just isn't enough.

(friends, i need you.)

+ posted by M @ 5:09 AM